A hopeless romantic

Well hello beautiful reader, it's been a while!
I really need to start scheduling when I will be posting and sticking to it…ha I wish.
Today I was in my room and, I started to question myself, what I want to do, what degree I am trying to pursue, what career is right for me and in the end will I be happy? It overwhelmed me so much to the point that I felt like I was having an anxiety attack, I didn't know what to do. So I went to my good ol' pal google, I typed in "I don't know what to do with my life," because honestly it's the truth. I.do.not.know. As I waited for the search to load I found one that caught my attention 7 strange questions that help you find your life purpose
, I read this article and it made me think A LOT. I am not going to tell you what the questions are because that is for you to find out, but what really got me is that it questions your vulnerability. What are you willing to do that will embarrass you but won't bother you? What makes you forget everything and puts you at ease? I will give you that answer…writing. Writing has always been here for me to just distress and forget reality for just a minute, but I know that I suck at it but I don't care. Part of the reason I am going to college IS to be a better writer because I love it so much.

This article actually opened my eyes to not be afraid to do something that you love even if you suck at it. Like my romance novel that I started to write, I don't think it that great but I don't care because it is for my enjoyment and maybe someday you will enjoy it too. I am a sucker for a good romance novel and I feel as if they are all the same but I want to change that. But a question keeps on popping up in my head "you have never been in love," and it is true, which makes me think about how am I going to make this book when I have not experience love myself? I don't feel that I should stop writing this novel or book just because of that one question but it does make me think.
I have a question for you, do you think someone should be writing about something they have never experience themselves? Does it depend on the situation?

A BIG move

As I sit on my couch of 3 years watching some YouTube videos and drinking a cup of coffee…yes it is 8 pm but as someone once wise said "It's 5 o'clock somewhere" but in my case it's 9 o'clock somewhere.

Any way I started to wonder about my move to California, which a lot of people tell me I am crazy because California is expensive but who cares what they think I want to live my life. So I went to google and typed in "apartments in LA" to imagine myself moving in, buying the perfect couch for my living room or going to target to find bathroom towels for when I have guest over . Now I really don't care to particularly live in LA, but I want to be by the beach in a cool hip town with plenty of coffee shops and places to shop that also has a farmers market every Sunday. Also I want to have dinner parties where my friends would come over and eat my latest creation talking about our big trip to Europe. Meanwhile I will wake up in the morning make a perfect cup of coffee and take a walk to the beach to sit down in the sand and watch the sunrise. Pretty much I dream of this so much that I practically can tell you my life in full detail without even living it. But for now I have to prepare for my big move and just live for now in the hopes I will make it out to my dream land.

Well my taste buds are craving something sweet and I am watching "Sleepless in Seattle", which is my first time seeing it and now wondering where has this movie been all my life. I am going to finish this movie and kill my craving, so why don't you go and do something crazy as I am doing with my time.

My question to you is: how do you imagine your 'perfect' life?

P.s Ashley


My brain is MUSH

Yes I know, I have been absent for a while and I will not promise that I will stay for long…well for this blog post (got cha!). On with my excuse of me being absent, well I can list them for you instead of going on a mundane explanation. 

List of reasons I've been…absent:
  1. Work
  2. Taking off school after graduating from high school
  3. Stressing about #2
  4. Even more stress about #2 and 3
  5. Laziness
  6. Even more laziness
  7. A serious obsession of pintrest
  8. And lot of other things (your typical life interruptions: constantly spending money on food)
BUT! I promise to write more just for the pure pleasure of my selfish needs and maybe for those who are reading this as we speak. NOW! Get off of here you crazy person and do something with your life no matter what time it is. Plan something. Try something. Hell…create something!

Yeah I am just going to go because my brain is in mush from reading for 4 hours of prehistoric Mesopotamia and Egyptian crap…THAT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND AT ALL! HOW DO YOU EVEN SAY GILGAMESH…WHAT KIND OF NAME IS THAT?! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO REMEMBER THAT!

I need my Netflix fix…bye!

P.s Ashley